mood: pleased music: naaaaada.

whattup livejournal, haven't updated ya in a while.

so yeah, i can only remember the weekend. short term memory i guess you could say. <3.

so of course it was march 19th and we had a snow storm? how the hell did that happen? because i had my road test, so it had to find some way to dick me over & get cancelled. that's the last time i schedule my road test early in centereach. >:[.

errr. so yeah, that got me all angry, but then i came into school around 10-ish & had my guidance appointment for 2 hours. i love missing spanish with schepanski. :D.

then i came into chemistry 7th period as my first class. :) always a good feeling.

then gym? wooo.  not. it's getting boring now we're just learning to tie ropes for the actual project adventure. it'll get better once we're outside all spring. <3.

hahah then we had a glamsquad prom meeting -deanna (the stupid shithead had to go away for basketball.)   jjjjkk i<3you dee. but yeah, we congregated in the library and got absolutely nothing done, so we tried going in a quite corner/the reject part of the school to see if our add would come to an end. negative. we still got nothing done. oooh dear.

lalalaa then jax steff & i went to dunkin donuts and then went to the mall to see if they had any prom dresses. no luck, so we just went home.

then that night was just kinda a low-key night so steff and i went to baja then came home and watched the movie 'thirteen.' soso weird, but kinda good in a way.?

she slept over that night. surprising=no. i swear my parents think of her more like a daughter than my best friend. my dad even buys a big carton of yoohoos for her when he goes to price club. hahah i feel neglected </3.   ;).

yeah, so this morning i had j.benson. she's still crazy & the math guy is still weird/nice/a possible killer.

theen i went to the mall with my mom to quickly get my sister a gift for her belated birthday. and she gave me one early, so it all evened out. ;). she got me a really nice wallet. :) it's orange & pink <3. ..just incase ya cared.

theen my mom, deanna & i went back to the mall for a little spring shopping.  <3. h&m is just amazing, that's all i have to say.

and now i'm home. :)

i wanna seeee my baby tonight<3 hahah we always hang out on sunday nights, we're complete nerds. :).

*later guys

mood: crazy music: hanson; i will come to you.

all i have to say is:

"i love chicken,  i love sausage, i hate my life."

& by now everyone's thinking i've gone absolutely crazy. unless you're one of the 5 girls that understand this joke, then you're probably peeing your pants ..literally.

oh yeah, and happy birthday madre & hoochie faroochie. :). hope you have fun being free now. i'm jealous. :)

mm today was just lovely. math was boring, english we continued to watch finding forrester, my cohn-zone test was pretty easy.  <3 quite happy 'bout that. especially since i stuided world war II questions on regentsprep.org when we were in a totally different category. yes, i'm quite aware of how smart i am. :P.

and i won't proceed to talk about my chem quiz, because i suck. :).

& then track was good. hahahah. except when schepanski screamed at me across the whole commons. i think what made it worse was that i was hysterical laughing. whattt're ya gonna do. :).

went shoppin' for gifts for my mom with my sister for a few hours. good bonding time<3. so glad she's home, it feels like she never left.   if only i could see her graduate </3.

loooong entry.

i'll stop talking & go read for english. :)

<3<3 later everrrrybody.

mood: giddy music: ben folds five; brick.

why is it snowing, it's the end of march.

hahah messed up weather i've gotta say.

sorry i didn't update for a while, a lots been going on between school, homework, prom planning, soccer & track.

prom planning just sucks. :) but it'll all be worth it in the end <3<3. i'm gonna be steff's adopted sister for that weekend, woooo.

does anybody know what they're doing for after prom? suggestions would be lovely.  <3.

aaaand there's no one tree hill again tonight, WTF. this is totally unacceptable. errr i'm not happy about that and neither is michelle, papermiche to be exact. maaaan she's my one tree hill giiiirl.  :)

track=indoors.  awesome. :D.

143 actually going to a full track practice today? yeaaa you should all be proud. :).

craaap, alright i hafta go do homework. & go on regentsprep.org to prepare for the cohn-zone test. daaaamnit.

fdj;sjfdsjfdsj

later fellow readers.                        :).

hey there.

so yesterday just sucked entirely, starting with 1st period. i had a huge math test that i went to extra help & had my tutor come, and i knew exactly what i was doing. then the test was just so hard. and i feel like i just blew my entire average on one test, it's so frustrating.  ..she also said later on that nobody in her morning classes got over a C+. just lovely. </3.

then my english teacher was a bi-polar bitch, but that's nothing new.

& i had a stomach ache and i just didn't feel well, and neither did jackie, so we just didn't go to track. i was starting to get over the bad day and went driving with my mom.

then i come back and i was talking about prom with people, and i was like ..maybe i should check the date on it for planning a limo.   (if we plan on taking one? any input?)

but yeah, then i found out that junior prom is on my sister's college graduation date and she's receiving awards and everything, and it's just really important to her. it's such a big day for her, i hate the fact that i have to miss it. and my mom & i were trying to figure things out, but it just wasn't working out. so she's gonna hafta go up that morning so my parents aren't gonna be here for junior prom, which sucks. but i'd rather that than have them be late for my sisters graduation.

</3. that whole situation just gets me upset. i hope something can workout.

but yes, now i have to just forget about that because i wanna be happy. :)

last night was a low-key starbucks night. hung out with steff & dee and saw kiersten & alex. haha i love those two.

then we also saw krisi, mish, tier & lyns. my favorite sophomores <3. with crystal & cmac of course. haha such a funny group of girls.

then my baby and chris came and hungout with us for a while<3

saw steena for the first time since she got back at college. wooo. : ).

then a bunch of us took a lovely ride (deanna going 80mph<3.) to wendys. mmmm<3.

ahh, so it was a good relaxing night.

and today is 8 months with greg :)       i love you darling. <3.

fjdjfds. craaaap. i have 10 minutes to find all my track stuff before jackie comes. i gotta go do that, but maybe i'll write later tonight. :)

*later guuuys.

mood: crushed

today just sucked.

deanna lauren angela schnepp, i am sorry. i love you so much. i'm so proud of you and look up to you in everyway possible.

i hate this, i wish i could control anything that's going on.

</3.

Band: Evanescence

use this bands lyrics to answer the questions.

*Are you male or female?: "Has no one told you she's not breathing"


*How old are you?   "i still remember the world from the eyes of a child, slowly those feelings were clouded by what i know now."

*Describe yourself:  "i'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger burning deep inside of me."

*How do you feel about yourself?: "I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems, got to open my eyes to everything."

*Where would you rather be: "I'm so tired of being here, surpressed by all my childish fears"

*Describe where you live: "Can you forget the world you thought you knew"

*Describe how you live: "I can feel you pull me down, fearing you, loving you, I won't let you pull me down"

*Describe or say something to someone you love: "promise you'll stay with me, oh you don't have to ask me, you know you're all that i live for. you know i'd die just to hold you, stay with you..   somehow i'll show you, that you are my night sky"

*Describe what you would say to an ex: "you won't cry for my absence i know, you forgot me long ago"

*Say something to someone who broke your heart: "don't try to fix me i'm not broken"

-Where do you see yourself in the future: "scared to death to face reality"

*Say something to an old friend who you lost touch with: "shame we hide our eyes, to blind them from the truth, please don't be afraid"

*Describe how your feeling: "i am so sick of speaking words that no one understands"

*Say something to a best friend:  "if you need to leave the world you live in, lay your head down and stay awhile"

-And to conclude this: "whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us to entertain, we reject it. we erase if from our memories, but the imprint is always there."

ahh that was hard. hahah her lyrics are so depressing. </3. oh well, tried my best :)

*goodnight guys

mood: uncomfortable music: family feud on tv. :)

so :)

last night jackie picked me up and we went to get up frank so we could all grab some baja. hahah, what an experience that turned out to be. who thought lake ave south could be so difficult.?!

....well.

jackie left the sheet with franks address & phone number on her computer desk. <3<3. and frank lost his cell phone, so we were scrambling around trying to find his mom's house number.

we called everyone who we thought wasn't doing anything that would know his #:

1. kailee (turned out to be coaching little kids in soccer.)

2. legoff (was in a midterm)

3. steff (who was playing soccer w/40 year olds...?)  yeah i know, shes weird. :) but that's why she's my best friend.

4. christina d'esposito

5. chuck

6. pete

7. kristin

yeah, i think that's it. :) then we called jackie's parentals and made them find the number. hahah oh dear. but yeah, then we still couldn't find it because we didn't realize it was over nesconset. so, 45 minutes later    ..we found frank's house.

and we were beeping and then some crazy looking guy with a bandana and a crowbar was walking toward the car, so we drove away and then came back. scary stuff.

but when we finally got there, it was lovely. :)

then i came home, and studied a little for english. nope, not chemistry. and i probably got slaughtered by that test today. mmm :\.

so yeah, today was just rainy and snowy and gross.. butttttt hahahaha. hamm's story definitely made my day. he was telling us about how he had a mild stroke because he was hit with a softball in the head.       ..that's not funny. i know. but if you saw his impressions when he was telling steff and i that he couldn't talk, we almost peed our pants. hahahaha he was acting like a complete retard. he should definitely do stand up comedy.

then hamm wrote steff & i a pass to go to track late. :) then we found jax wandering the halls with lee, so we wrote her name on the pass too and headed to track late.

which was freezing. but thats k.

but yeah, then jackie drove steff & i home and here i am. eating. in my rainy spandex & sweatshirt. yuuk. uncomfy. :(

i think im gonna go shower & go driving. :)

....and then eventually do my homework.

*goodluck @ baseball greg :) you're gonna do great. <3.

laaaater guys. <3 :)

mood: cheerful music: dispatch.

hey there journal. not much to write about today.

this morning i had my SAT course. haha good times er & monica. <3<3.

then i went to soccer practice. haha 6 1/2 people there. deanna came late and left early, so i counted her as half. :).  i<3youpetrucci. i hope everything works out with barrage and we play awesome this season. last season girls, let's make it good.

aand now im just hanging out around my house & thinking about doing homework. but not really doing it.  gotta love it. ;).

happy birthday william mcclain.!! smile, you're 18 and you can buy lotto tickets..?  yep, i'm definitely the biggest loser ever. <3.

and jenna, it's awesome that everything worked out for you and that you're so happy now. you really deserve it babe.

byebye.         :)

*if you'd call my name outloud,

do you suppose that i would come running,

do you suppose i'd come at all?

i suppose i would.      <3.

mood: blank music: evanescence; whisper.

so last night deanna & steff slept over and we went for a wendys run @ 130     ..but it closes at 1, not 2. we're smart. :\. haha but it was all good cause we went to 7-11 to get some chips and slurpees.

i was supposed to wake up at 730 today and do my sat work, but i didn't. soccer was cancelled @ 11, so we went to get bagels in the am instead. : ). it was good times with those two.

then steff came back here & i did my SAT work while steff was typing away at the computer. hahah. she's such a loser.

then kait picked us up.!! <3<3. what a great time that was. we went to the mall, and bought her lunch and shopped. :) good bonding time. i missed kait so much. then we went to starbucks. it was a lovely day. thanks for driving kait, you're awesome. <3.

and now kimberlie's here. :) steff's coming soon whenever she's done eating pizza. wooo.

i think she's stopping to rent a movie too. yayy. turning a night with no rides into a fun night. <3 gotta love those.

tomorrow i have the sat class in the am. errr. not looking forward to that. then i have soccer straight after. iii wannnnaaaa sleeeeepppp. <3.

hopefully after soccer i'll hang out with my gregory. :) sundays are our days. <3. love you darling.

*time for a movie.  later guys. ;)

mood: contemplative

mmm. so i was getting a little sick of my background so i changed it,

like itttt?

orrr should i change to something else.?

mood: productive music: evanescence; everybody's fool.

this is definitely my favorite song on the album, it's soso good. and if i ends up on the radio like 'my immortal' i think i'll scream.       ..like i did with the other song. </3. i'm such a loser, i really am. :)

aaaah, so anyway, it's friday. awesome :). school was school. and then greg came over after school for a bit. <3<3. i love that boy.

the weathers been sucky these past 2 days. ;(. i.miss.you.sun*   and i heard it's gonna snow on monday? that better be wrong, or i'm gonna kill mother nature. :).

spring track starts on monday.!! i'm kinda excited i hafta admit. i hope it's nice weather this year though.      ..maybe that's what i'm looking forward to, not the whole i-hafta-actually-run-in-track-meets-this-season thing. : )  oh whattup winter track slackers. <3

oh yeah, and i hate ms.faaroooch. she put my ghetto wannabe slut 7th grade website on her journal. hahahah i hope you all enjoy it.  <3<3.

i know you wish you were as cool as i was in middle school.

and of course i'm kidding.

mmm, i should start with some of my homework, so i think im gonna go do that. <3.

it takes a true nerd to do any sort of homework on friday.

mucho amore tout le monde.

both of my foreign languages put together. :).   looove it. <3.

mood: giggly

me: he writes in piiiinnkkk.

steff: no!! he writes in black

steff: ..watch it's like dark purple.

hahahaha. why is she such a loser?

mood: nerdy music: soco; cavanaugh park.

geez, it's already wednesday. this week is going by fast. but the school days feel so long.

happy seventeenth birthday kaitlin brookes anastasia fleming.  i miss you. <3<3.

but yeah, last night one tree hill was soso good. :) and it was even better because my baby came over for a few hours and watched it with me. <3. i love you.

!!!!!!!. guess what i have in math for the 1/2 way mark? *95%. i don't think anybody realizes how happy i am about that. maybe it's because i'm such a spaz at math. :).

hahah kim's mom threatened her that she'd take out her lightbulbs if she kept her lights on one more time. funny family. <3.

yesterday jenna and i were sitting together on the bus and she was listening to her music and i was just dazed off and she says "isn't it cool how it's not awkward that we're not talking but sitting together?" hahah it was really funny & so true. love that giiiirl.

oh yeah, and steff, thank you for always being my best friend in the entire world. i appreciate everything you do for me & how much you put up with me through it all.

clocks by coldplay just came on. if you know me really well, you know how much i hate that song.

this is probably the most random entry i've ever written. hahaha. </3.

i think i might go running? it's pretty outside. :)

*later everybody

mood: bouncy music: moulin rouge-ish. <3<3<3.

ah, relaxing feels so nice right now. <3.

this morning i had joyce benson's SAT course from 9-1. haha she is one crazy lady, that's all i hafta say. but the math guy is cool. hahaha it was really funny, this kid was sitting in the front of the room and was sick and everything and she's like oh my god, i can't have you sit up here, you're going to get me sick so she called my name and was like, you sit up here instead. so i did, and i was coughing and she was like youuuuu have to sit in the back, you're sick too. hahah even though i'm not, it works for me since i got to sit with er & monica again. :P

then i came home, ate some food<3 and made my way over to soccer practice with barrage. it was nice out today, and i love barrage, so i didn't mind rushing. : )

and then after practice my dad & i went to some car dealerships for my birthday. :D i think i'm gonna look at a used jetta? maybe the navy or the grey-ish/blue, not sure yet.

ahh, alright fine, i'll go do some homework & stop procrastinating <3.

*later everyone. :)

mood: bored

BOLD the movies you've seen.

1. X-Men
2. The Craft
3. X2
4. Swimfan
5. Fellowship of the Ring
6. Finding Nemo
7. Peter Pan
8. Home Alone
9. Aladdin
10.The Ring
11.10 Things I Hate About You
12.Not Another Teen Movie
13.Spiceworld
14.8 Mile          ..1/2 of it 
15.Bambi
16. Pirates of the Carribean
17. Edward Scissorhands
18.Stepmom
19. My Best Friends Wedding
20.101 Dalmations
21. Scream
22. Scream 2
23. Scream 3
24.Big Daddy
25.Billy Madison
26. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
27.Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
28. Heartbreakers
29.Dumb & Dumber
30. Two Weeks Notice
31.Scary Movie
32. Look Who's Talking
33. Blade
34. Blade II
35. O
36. Titanic
37. Carrie
38. Carrie 2: The Rage
39. Daddy Day Care
40.Legally Blonde
41.Austin Powers
42. Storm of the Century
43. Oliver and Company
44. Two Towers
45. Return of the King
46. Mighty Ducks
47. Fast and the Furious
48. 2 Fast, 2 Furious
49.A Walk To Remember
50. XXX
51.Beauty and the Beast
52. I Know What You Did Last Summer
53. I Still Know What You Did Last Summer
54.Sound of Music
55. Mary Poppins
56. Tuck Everlasting
57. The Patriot
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Killing Ms. Tingle     ..but it was changed to teaching ms. tingle
60. Crossroads
61. Now and Then
62. Pearl Harbor
63. Just Married
64. Cast Away
65. Radio Flyer
66. Final Destination
67. Lady and the Tramp
68. Shallow Hal
69. 40 Days and 40 Nights
70. Bring It On
71. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
72. The Outsiders
73. The Matrix
74. Perfect Storm
75. Cruel Intentions
76. Never Been Kissed
77. Clueless
78. Bruce Almighty
79. Remember the Titans
81. Girl, Interrupted
82. SWAT
83. Sixth Sense
84. PhoneBooth
85. The Lion King
86. Urban Legends
87. Nightflier
88. Lion King 2
89. Little Mermaid
90. American Pie
91. Center Stage
92. Scooby Doo
93. Bedazzled
94. Mrs. Doubtfire
95. Save the Last Dance
96. My Girl
97. American Beauty
98. Romeo & Juliet
99. Lost World
100. Casper
101. Miss Congeniality
102. The Rock
103. Face Off
104. Moulin Rouge
105. Sleeping Beauty
106. Alien
107. Tombstone
108. Lake Placid
109. The Recruit
110. The Shining
111. Pocahontas
112. French Kiss
113. Pretty Woman
114. Dirty Dancing
115. Italian Job
116. Love Actually
117. Identity
118. The Mummy
119. Drumline
120. Finding Forrester
121. Monster's Inc.
122. League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
123. Spawn
124. All I Want
125. Mallrats
126. Dogma
127. Rat Race
128. Stigmata
129. Eye Of The Beholder
130. To Die For
131. Gangs Of New York
132. A Clockwork Orange
133. Chicago
134. Big Fish
135. Donnie Darko
136. Chinatown
137. There's Something About Mary
138. National Security
139. What Dreams May Come
140. Lilo and Stitch
141. Selena
142. Les Miserables; Tenth Anniversary Concert
143. Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
144. Oliver
145. The Haunting
146. Jane Eyre
147. Monty Python and The Holy Grail
148. Annie
149. Pleasantville
150. The Goodbye Girl
151. Evita
152. How to Deal
153. Drop Dead Gorgeous
154. Waiting for Guffman
155. The Breakfast Club
156. Best In Show

mood: energetic music: dave matthews; crash into me.

today is absolutely beautiful outside. :) smiiile.

last night was low key and nothing was really going on in the outside world for smithtown.

kai, ash, krisi, greg, chris, storm and i all went to kim's though. itttt was a good time.  <3.

hahah me greg and chris got lost on the way to kims house though. hahah i'm such an idiot. it's all goooood.

hahah anyway, yeah then kai ash krisi and i slept over and watched final destination. hahah we freaked ourselves out a bit, but what can we say, we're girls. :)

don't know whats going on tonight? but today @ 130 barrage practice. wooo. :) i'm kinda excited since it's so nice outside. <3 then after i think we're gonna get pizza. 143 losing weight and gaining it back.

ccit sleepover -steff </3 tonight?      ..maybe? we will seee.

deanna marie petrucci, you are my idol*     smile dear. :).

hfjdhfjsd. i love this weather.

i'm gonna go get ready for soccer because i'm a loser. <3.

*adios laadies & gents.

mood: tired music: the early november.

so i guess i've been in an arguement with a close friend of mine for a few weeks now. it sucks having things be this awkward between us. she knows who she is, and i'm sorry about what happened. i just hope things will get better with time. </3.

 ahh.

i don't even know why i've been kinda off lately, but sooner or later i'll snap out of it and beeee my dork-ish self again. :)

thanks to everyone whos been there for me. you guys are the greatest, and i couldn't ask for better friends. you've cheered me up tremendously. <3.

i'ma go workout though, fat is taking over my body and yeaaa ..its not good. :P.

*later guys.

mood: stressed music: yellowcard; only one.

11th grade work sucks.

1.5 quarters, 1 SAT, 1 ACT, and 3 regents to go before we're home free juniors.

...kinda.

<3.

everyone who cheered me up, i love you more than words can express. i'm so lucky to have you guys. <3.

lilhunny 21: sometimes i just feel like i cant do it
thenwhat06: yes you can, we can.. me you steph jax lee and dee.. we'll help eachother get through it

agreed.

gregory, i love you.                  *theres.just.no.one.who.gets.me.like.you.do.

goodnight everyone.

mood: content music: oasis; wonderwall.

oh my god.

jamie, thank you once again for saving my livejournal.

<3<3<3.

i love it. :)